Saturday, July 25, 2009

Random tots..

i NOE i NOE.. I shud be posting smth abt DE DAY..xD but post dis 1st la since i write adi..
dunno wher all these so called emo tots came from but yea anyway..

Sometimes I feel like a kid
Who doesn't understand anything about love
Yet has the ability to be so manipulative

Sometimes i feel so emotion-less
I've become so numb
Neither happy nor sad nor angry

Sometimes i feel so evil
Like the whole world is at my disposal
So futile to even conquer it

Sometimes i feel like a computer
No imagination only logic exists
An inability to express the right emotion

Sometimes i got no self-confidence
And all i can think is how useless i am
So purposeless in this world

Sunday, July 19, 2009

The Heartbreaker

this is just something random i put together today to put my mind to work.. i started this at 5 in morning..@.@ woke up and couldn't fall asleep..=.= this is not EXACTLY abt me most of de stuff i did exaggerate heheh.. but ther are some parts which are true lar..=) anyway here it is
(heh dis idea not exactly original but hey wth don think he minds hehe)

Part 1 - The Intro

The Heartbreaker
She's a player
The Heartbreaker
She's a freakin' pro manipulator
The Heartbreaker
She became like this because of a trigger
The Heartbreaker
She is part of the Anti-Lovers
The Heartbreaker
Her job is to break every heart that lets her
The Heartbreaker
She thought she could close up her heart til her life was over
The Heartbreaker
She had vowed to never fall in love ever

Part 2 - The Now

The Rejected Doll need not worry
Because the the Heartbreaker feels really sorry
For all the things she's done
For playing with guys for fun

The Heartbreaker's feeling guilty
For taking out her frustration on all her dearies
The Heartbreaker's afraid of falling in love
She's scared to fly again like a dove

The Heartbreaker wants to change her ways
To change the things she usually says
The Heartbreaker wants what's best for the Rejected Doll
Cause she doesn't want him ever to fall

How ironic is it for a Heartbreaker to fall
For the one and only Rejected Doll?

Part 3 - Her message to R.D.

The Heartbreaker can't guarantee the Rejected Doll's happiness
But she'll hope he'll give her a try first

The Heartbreaker had relationships that didn't really lasts
She really regrets what she has done in the past

The Heartbreaker is trying to decide what to do
Whether this relationship with the Rejected Doll should she pursue

Another victim the Heartbreaker has caught
But she fell in love believe it or not

Sunday, July 12, 2009

Feeling emo..

I'm getting desperate
Desperate for love
Desperate til i imagine every damn guy as my soul mate

Getting fed up
Fed up with life
Fed up til i'm taking a lot of unnecessary risks

Getting really emo
Emo about him
Emo til i get jealous about any dumb thing that i see

did dis like yesterday.. was waiting for food to come lol.

tommy and his rubix cube

i was bored.. waiting to go church this morning so i did this cuz of wat a fren said last nite hehe.. xD Lame but wtv.. xD

Tommy was going to school when he thought hey
I wanna bring my rubix cube
"Mummy," he asked "can i?"

So off he went to school
And with him was his toy
"I am trying to solve this," he said when asked by his friends
"Did you ever finish it," Betty asked

I saw him at class still trying to figure it out
"My dear could you stop playing and listen to me," the teacher said

"ARGH!!" he yelled. "Someone stole my rubix cube!!"

Golly was Tommy upset
Round and round the school he went looking for it
Eek! Even through the garbage
At last the bell had rung and it was time to go and
Tommy the poor thing had no choice but to catch his bus home

ohfish.. i4gottododelastacronym=.= nvmletsjustcrapsmthout

Five in the evening
Rubix cube in hand
I cycled to his house
Energyless but happy i knocked on his door
Not looking very happy was tommy at the door
Delighted his face lit up when he saw his precious rubix cube

Saturday, July 11, 2009


gosh i'm addicted LOL.


-Pick 12 person from your blog link list.
-You can also include the person who tag you among the 12 person as well.
-State how old are they.
-State how did you meet that person.
-State when did you meet that person.
-State the most memorable thing he/she said to you.
-State the most memorable thing he/she did with you.
-State what will make/remind you think of them.
-Tag all the 12 of them after you finish the tag.
-Remind all 12 of them that they are tagged.
-The people who are tag can re-tag the person who are tagged.

-1st day of school at taman sea..=)
-"i have flame(phlegm) in my throat".. xD
-helping me with my problems..
-bubur cha cha

2.Len Ping
-same van as me..=)
-watch the dark knight
-apple tree or strawberry

3.Mun Yee
-form 4a.. smart girl sitting in front of me
-"wat the hell?"
-talking crap at class
-PIG! xD

-form 5.. egoistic fella sitting in front of esther
-"cuz u r a gr8 fren"
-chatting while waiting for his auntie come fetch
-poems.. and arrogant(perasan) ppl..xD

5.Kay Jun
-form 1.. i'm de onli girl sitting next 2 a guy which was HIM. lol
-"u still haven't finished portal yet arr??"
-skipping hse practice to go da kei with him
-DJ.. techno music

-when i was 7.. cell group
-"football manager is not boring"
-de 1st day i met him.. he banged me 2 de wall while we were all playing blind man's buff
-football or football manager

7.Tse Pei
-last year sit beside mun yee
-Bitching abt our "favourite" teacher
-sword fighting games,black cats.=)

Yu Ming
-in kindergarten.. he was best fren's with my best fren.. or smth liddat.. xD
-walking home dat day from... somewher.. i 4got jor..
-dissidia/monster hunter/psp freak/tales of the world/kingdom hearts

-last year when i frequently visited 4kemboja.. xD
-"wat the f*ck is wrong with you"
-hanging 0ut wif him and de gang at 4k
-crazy ass LOUD fella..xD

-at KP marching/meetings
-"eyh esther not here hang out with me la" or smth liddat.. xD
-Marching our skins off for sport's day
-Crazy guitarist babe and joker..

11.Si Jun
-same class.. had 2 do something together in a group
-"if i was a girl i would be a lesbian"
-Chatting with him last time together with hoe chong
-Perverted ass/porn star/money minded

12.Heer Raj
-KP camp same group
-"mat kool mat kool kawanku"
-hanging out with him during camp
-talented dancer/indian songs/VERY smart for a form 1.=)

Tag:1st letter?

It's harder than it looks! Copy to your own note, erase my answers, enter yours, and tag ten people. Use the first letter of your name to answer each of the following questions. They have to be real - nothing made up! If the person before you had the same first initial, you must use different answers. You cannot use any word twice and you can't use your name for the boy/girl name question.

1. What is your name :Michelle Ding

2. A four Letter Word :Muck

3. A boy's Name :Michael

4. A girl's Name : Melanie

5. An occupation : Monster Hunter

6. A color : Magenta

7. Something you'll wear : miniskirt

8. A food : mango

9. Something found in the bathroom: Make-up

10. A place : Malaysia

11. A reason for being late : my mom was taking her time

12. Something you'd shout : Ma de!!

13. A movie title : Money no enough

14. Something you drink : Milo

15. A musical group : Matchbox 20

16. An animal : Monkey

17. A street name : Main Street

18. A type of car : Mercedes

19. The title of a song : Mad - ne-yo

Tag: 100 Truths

1. Last beverage = Water
2. Last phone call = Tim
3. Last text message = Wee Liam
4. Last song you listened to = New Divide - Linkin Park
5. Last time you cried = was tearing abit while watching FMA just now.. xD

6. Dated someone twice = i guess..
7. Been cheated on = don think so =)
8. Kissed someone & regretted it = heh heh.. can i skip dis question? xD
9. Lost someone special = DUH. unless u mean lost as in die den no.
10. Been depressed = who hasn't?
11. Been drunk and threw up = O.O never.

12. purple
13. black
14. white

15. Made a new friend = DUH.
16. Fallen out of love = i don think so..
17. Laughed until you cried = o.O don recall..
18. Met someone who changed you = sorta..=)
19. Found out who your true friends were = not really no.
20. Found out someone was talking about you = yeap. from aileen.
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list = as in de facebook friend's list.. errr... yea?
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life = 70%?
23. How many kids do you want to have = o.O it's a bit early to plan dontcha think?
24. Do you have any pets = No. T.T
25. Do you want to change your name = YESSS... michelle is soooo.. common.
26. What did you do for your last birthday = exam..T.T
27. What time did you wake up today = din sleep well but i woke up around 8?
28. What were you doing at midnight last night = sleeping
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for = Assassin's Creed 2!!
30.When you last saw your dad = earlier dis evening.. he game my modem..=)
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life? = My past..
32. What are you listening to right now = Nothing? no music's on.
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom = o.O. i don think so..
34. What's getting on your nerves right now = my weight.=.=
35. Most visited webpage = my blog=>
36. What’s your real name = Michelle Ding
37. Nicknames = Michael, Ding Dong Bell..
39. Zodiac sign = Taurus
40. Male or female? = Female
41. Primary school = SJK(c) Puay Chai
42. High School = SMK Taman SEA
43. Uni = not yet laaaa..
44. Hair colour = Brownish black.
45. Long or short = short-shoulder length-ish
46. Height = abt 160+
47. Do you have a crush on someone? = sorta?
48: What do you like about yourself? = My oh-so gr8 personality.. xDD
49. Piercings = none. i pierced my ears b4 tho..
50. Tattoos = No
51. Righty or leftie = Righty

52. First surgery = o.O never..
53. First piercing = 7 i think..
54. First best friend = Kathy i think.. don rmb..
55. First sport you joined = ping pong?
56. First vacation = seriously don rmb...
58. First pair of trainers = wat on earth are trainers...?

59. Eating = was eating mango.. but right now nothing
60. Drinking = My saliva? xD
61. I'm about to = turn on music
62. Listening to =waking up in vegas - katy perry
63. Waiting on = o.O waiting on wat..?

64. Want kids? = after seeing ppl give birth not so keen at the moment..
65. Get Married? = Probably if it's God's will..=)
66. Career? = dunno yet wo..

67. Lips or eyes = Eyes
68. Hugs or kisses = Hugs
69. Shorter or taller = Taller
70. Older or Younger = Older
71. Romantic or spontaneous = Spontaneous
72. Nice stomach or nice arms = both? =)
73. Sensitive or loud = sensitive?
74. Hook-up or relationship = Relationship
75. Trouble maker or hesitant = Trouble maker

76. Kissed a stranger = No
77. Drank hard liquor= No
78. Lost glasses/contacts = don think so..
79. Sex on first date = O.O WAT DE FISH? NO LA LOL.
80. Broken someone's heart = yeap.
81. Had your own heart broken = duh.
82. Been arrested = o.O LOL no.
83. Turned someone down = DUH.
84. Cried when someone died = Yes even in anime and soap operas lol.
85. Fallen for a friend? = yesssssss....

86. Yourself = most of da time.
87. Miracles = Yes.
88. Love at first sight = no not rly..=)
89. Heaven = Yes
90. Santa Claus = No
91. Kiss on the first date = No
92. Angels = Yes

94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time = No
95. Did you sing today? = Yes i think so..
96. Ever cheated on somebody? = No
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go? = just b4 i met him.
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?= da day i said yes to angela to go LLC LOL.
99. Are you afraid of falling in love? = Half?
100. Posting this as 100 truths? = sorta..=)

Tag Ur iT:
2.Mun Yee
3.Kay Jun
4.Len Ping
6.Yu ming

We Ride

I saw this tag in a fren's blog and since i was bored, tot i'd do it since it was kinda unique xD compared to all those lame random ones~

a. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc on shuffle.
b. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
d. Put any comments in brackets after the song name.
e. Put this on your blog.

1. If someone says,"Is this okay?"
Linkin Park - New Divide
(I'm guessing this means no.. xD)

2. How would you describe yourself?
Santana feat. Chad Kroger - Into The Night
(dancing into the nite??? LOL)

3. What do you like in a guy/girl?
Cyclone feat T-Pain - Cyclone
(He must move his body like a cyclone!! xDD)

4. How do you feel today?
Pit Bull - Crazy
(Yea.. de heat was driving me nuts earlier..)

5. What is your life's purpose?
Black Eyed Peas - Pump It
(pump it LOUDER! XDD)

6. What is your motto?
Jason Mraz - I'm Yours
(i'm who's??? )

7.What do your friends think of you?
Linkin Park - Numb
(never changing alweiz da kiddo michelle.. she's become so numb she can't feel us there..xD)

8. What do you think of your parents?
Secondhand Serenade - The Last Song
(ok i don get dis...and i can't tell dis last song ends..)

9. What do you think about very often?
Bullet for My Valentine - Hearts Burst Into Fire
(when i see your face my heart has burst into fire LOL)

10. What is 2+2?
Identity Part 3 - 02jam
(lol 2+2 EQUALs 3!?)

11. What do you think of your best friend?
Matchbox 20 - How Far We've Come
(let's see how far we've come..=D)

12. What do you think of the person you like?
Nickelback - Far Away
(cuz u noe u noe.. i love u..i loved you all along.. xD)

13. What is your life?
Rihanna - Take A Bow
(lol my life is abt guys trying to apologize and crying 2 me..!!! xDD)

14. What do you want to be when you grow up?
Eminem - We Made You
(i'm a rockstar!!)

15. What do you think of when you see the person you like?
Fort Minor - Believe Me
(I guess that this is where we've come to, if you don wan 2, den u don hv to believe me)

16. What will you dance to at your wedding?
Nickelback - Gotta Be Somebody
(yea i've found my soul mate.. xD)

17. What will they play at your funeral?
Christina Millan - Us Against The World
(no comment...)

18.What is your hobby/interest?
Kat DeLuna - Run The Show
(yea i'll be de one running the show.. xD)

19. What is your biggest fear?
Britnet Spears - If You Seek Amy
(o.O if i seek amy?? lol. u noe i had a fren named amy..)

20. What is your biggest secret?
Cassie - Me And You
(lol does dat mean my biggest secret is my relationship with some guy..xD)

21. What do you think of your friends?
Linkin Park - Faint
(ahahaha they make me wanna pengsan!! xD)

22. What will you post this as?
Rihanna - We Ride
(. . .)

23. What song would you play during your first time having sex?
Eminem - Just Lose It
(just lose it.. argh argh argh.. xDD)

yea i did dis halfway but wasn't happy wif de answers so i did it again hehe

Sunday, July 5, 2009


It seems that i'm exceptionally happy nowadays
In a way I wish I didn't know why

It's hard not to like a person
Who doesn't have someone in mind

It's difficult to pretend
When there seems to be so many signs

My life likens a complicated carving of wood so fine
When love starts breeding in this broken heart of mine

I don't wanna deny this feeling
Yet i don't wanna keep him from seeing

My mind is blur I can't see straight
The temptation is certainly great

Longing to hold him with all my might
Desperate not to let him disappear from my sight

But my greatest fear of all
Is the risk of losing him and fall

gah.. no mood to continue thx 2 a bugger..=.=

Saturday, July 4, 2009

Kadet Polis marching!! 2009!

pretty pretty wallpapers.. xD

aren't they pretty? xD


freaking cool game that i'm playing now!!

all i can say is... AWESOME!!! seriously man.. this game rocks!! at first i got abit annnoyed cuz when i play that time got no sound.. wat de fish??? but after some changes in de device manager da sound CAME BACK!! I was DAMN FREAKING HAPPY!!! Seriously.. can u imagine playing a hack and slash game without the sound of a sword or sharp object slicing thru someone's body?? de sound of futile screams of help?? hahaha i'm just kidding.. xDD i heard there was some problem with the sound being too fast.. hahahaha.. imagine some1 saying.. i'm gonna take revenge on all who have done dis to me in a chipmunk voice LOL. anyway just watch this and u'll TOTALLY WANNA BUY DA GAME!!!

oh de randomness..

Love can be a funny thing cause it likes to play with your mind.
But when your heart skips a beat its more than just a sign.
woah where did dis come from..? xD
To tell someone you love them is a risk indeed.
But sometimes saying i love you is definitely a need.
oh no.. it's getting lame..
Destiny will find it's way or do u have to make it?
Well i'm not gonna wait to find out i'll just find a way to beat it.
oh great.. now i'm just making stuff to fit it in..
Letting him know how you feel is certainly a hard thing to do.
But keeping it inside and suppressing it certainly makes me a fool.
. . .fool doesn't rly rhyme wif do now does it?
So what am i to do with this annoying little feeling?
Should i just confess to him or should i just keep on dreaming.
I ask for advice left and right but everyone seems to see.
That this guy is just some normal crush and not the one for me.
the end